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I can never be good enough. The day I think I'm the best is the day I stop improving.

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Posted by AceMantra - February 20th, 2018

So a few of you have probably wondered where I've been for the past little while. So I thought I would give a quick update of what's been going on.

For those of you who don't know, I currently work at a liquor store; I've been working there for about 9 months now.

I can't reveal many details as I may need to make a court appearance, but long story short, my coworker and I were nearly injured by a man with a machete last night. We managed to get him out of the store before he could harm anyone, but the mental damage is harsh.

I'll update this later; I have to go to work.

Posted by AceMantra - October 2nd, 2017

Most of us here on Newgrounds are creative in some form. But whether it's lack of energy, motivation, inspiration, or time, it isn't always easy to finish personal projects. The biggest culprit for me was work because it would often leave me too exhausted to do anything else other than eating and sleeping.


Here I will address some of the more common problems that occur when working on a project. Most of it will apply to everyone; animators, musicians, artists, writers, and anyone else who find themselves stuck on something. Please note that these methods are what work for me. They won’t necessarily work for you.


Unfortunately I had to split up this post into multiple parts due to its length. So today I will cover two:


No Ideas:

So, your mind is as blank as the piece of paper in front of you. What do you do? Most of the time you won’t get an idea from nothing, so stop staring at nothing.

Take a moment to think about creative things you admire and seek them out for a few minutes each day. Books, movies, art, quotes, tutorials, music, etc. Once you do, put it all in one place and make it easily accessible. For example, I save or bookmark art and music I enjoy and put it into one folder. Then before I start a project, I have a look inside the folder for anything that might spark an idea. This isn’t guaranteed to work every time, but I find it helps.


I have more idea generating exercises specifically for writers, artists, and musicians that I will include in a future post if there is demand for it.


Lack of Motivation:

Here’s the ugly truth: motivation is unreliable. You can’t just wait for motivation to happen in order to start doing something. A lot of times you won’t feel motivated until after you start. That being said, there are some things you can try to help improve your chances of getting motivated if you find it to be a problem.

Make sure you’re taking care of yourself and your basic needs first. Are you eating well? Are you sleeping too much or too little? Are you stressed? It may seem obvious, but physical and mental health is often overlooked when trying to address a persistent lack of motivation. It may be worth looking into if you find that nothing else works, or if you find a lack of motivation in more than one factor in your life (working, eating, sleeping, socializing, etc.)

Next is to get back into the habit. Routine is motivation’s best friend, and while motivation may not always be there, a strong routine will make up for it. Make a promise to yourself that you’ll work on a certain amount per day, per week or whatever you feel like you can do. If you find yourself unable to keep that promise you’re setting the bar too high. Don’t beat yourself up over it either. Like building muscle, you’re slowly strengthening your habit by adding a little more each time you do it. If you do more than you planned, great! If you do less, no problem. At least you kept the routine going.

Motivation is often squashed by unhealthy thought patterns, which I will discuss more in detail in the future when I talk about self-criticism. “I can’t do this,” “I suck,” “I’ll never be as good as <artist>.” If any of these sound like you, try to be aware of these thoughts when they happen and replace them with something more logical and reasoned. It isn’t always easy to notice them, but more on that later.


In my next post I will be covering Time Management, Perfectionism, and Self-Criticism. I’ll close this off with a couple of questions: How do you overcome your creative struggles? If you can’t overcome them, what are they? I’d love to hear your thoughts.

Posted by AceMantra - August 4th, 2017

Just sending another update. I have a lot to cover since my last post seemed like it was forever ago.

My ear has healed up nicely as far as I can tell, and I'm no longer coughing to the point of vomiting. Whatever it was it's gone now, so I'm sure there's nothing to worry about now (fingers crossed).

During my time of sickness however, I thought it would be a good idea to audition for NGADM. Being certain that I wouldn't get in, I thought it couldn't hurt to at least try. To my surprise I not only made it into the first round, I placed 7th out of the 236 people who auditioned. On top of that good news, I received news that I got hired to work a part-time job. Great news all around! Well, except being sick at the time.

So between vomiting, working a new job, competing in NGADM, and getting a music gig for a video game (more on that later) were nights filled with anxiety. But I was up for the challenge! My goal for NGADM was to finish something, I didn't care if I even made it to the next round. So I made this: http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/754519

I didn't advance to the next round, but honestly I was relieved. It gave me more time to focus on work and video game music.

Now, the music gig which is now complete is for a game set to release this month. I was asked to do Synthwave, and being a fan of the genre I agreed. I later realized my mistake, as being a fan doesn't really mean you have any experience. "But I used to do a lot of Trance," I thought, "how different could they be?" (They are WAY different). I may upload a couple of the tracks in the next day or two if anyone is curious.

That's all for now. There's a lot more to write about still but I'm running out of time yet again. Expect another update soon!

Posted by AceMantra - June 16th, 2017

So it's been some time since I posted anything or interacted much on NG. So I decided to write this update to let people know I'm not dead.

Starting with the reason why you started reading this, yes my left ear started bleeding the other day. It started getting plugged shortly after I caught some major virus that is still making me cough viciously. Then in the night it ruptured. I did see a doctor about it; he confirmed it was an ear infection. The problem that concerns me the most is the hearing. Everything I hear out of the left is now registering at a slightly higher pitch than the right. This of course makes music production a bit of a challenge because everything sounds way different now. So it may be some time before I get back in the studio chair.

The last two years have been difficult for me. Mostly due to cost of medication that isn't covered by my insurance for some reason. At some point soon I'll have to choose between medication, food, or rent, but I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. All this time fighting depression without a job has been hindering, but it may also be a blessing in disguise. Not having a job has given me a lot more time to work on the things I love to do like music and graphic design. Things are looking up though. I had a couple of job interviews and will hopefully hear back from them soon…well, half-hear back.