Looks like baby's first Christmas will be an unhappy one. Have no money for gifts, or anything, really. I don't feel like a very good person right now.

Debts are still there, always there. Working hours have been cut; the pandemic has made it worse than usual.

Depression is still ongoing, as depression often is. I've been having suicidal thoughts again, so I talked to my doctor. My medication has been adjusted, but of course, that means more money I have to pay for pills. Everything is a tradeoff it seems.

I guess it isn't all bad. I have enough to feed and take care of my baby's needs for now. I worry about the months to come though.